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The thought of it makes me shudder.
Monday, May 31, 2010 11:57 PM
I feel sleepy, yet I can't sleep. Insomnia. Sigh. Weird dreams starting to haunt me again. Am I thinking too much? That expression on your face on that very day. It came back to haunt me. I kept dreaming about it. This time with that particular smile. It's scary. The same dream, everyday, for a week. It's a nightmare to me. D:
I guess I'm just too selfish. I got a feeling you are lying. In fact, I think you've been lying to me all this while. What can I do? Go along with the flow? I can't go on like that. Well, not for long. 

Chemicals react
12:50 AM
I still can't get over the fact that my skin is orange in colour. Tsk. Why? D: Anyways, there's a Coach sale later on. Like, oh gosh. Ameerul is going to Vietnam. 5 days without Ameerul's presence! How am I going to survive? Just imagine a mother without a son. Sigh. ):
Anyways, it's time for me to hit the gym. I've been eating a lot. You can imagine Marina singing "OH MY GAWD!" Yeah, just like that.
I've been blogging crap lately huh? Not for long. I will be busy soon. And I won't have time to blog. Blogging has become something essential in my life. Well, somehow. Okay, I'm crapping again. Being busy and blogging being something important in my life is like, totally irrelevant. 
I guess I'm going haywire. :/
 

Naturally.
Saturday, May 29, 2010 11:55 PM
EC workshop today. It was fun. Next on to tackle, Student leader convention! :D When it's time to work, work hard. When it's time to play, play hard. (: 
There's something wrong with me lately. Hmm... Oh well. It's normal I guess. I'm really proud to say I'm really over Milk. I swear! You want to know why? Ik houd van jou. :D 
Translate it if you don't understand. 
  
Oh gosh, I'm still freaking out.  

BO TA HU.
Friday, May 28, 2010 1:13 AM
My skin turned red instead of getting darker after the camp. -.- 
I've got new glasses! :D
My grades deprove! ):
GSS and Art fest! Here I come! 
Ain't this post random? 
I know. 
Because I'm bored.
Ahahahah. 
-.-
I like how apple juice is pronounced in burmese. Hahah. :D 


I have no life. :D 

Wednesday, May 26, 2010 10:48 PM
Back from camp. It was fun. Well, almost everything. Updating tomorrow.

I can't do anything about it. Seriously. I don't need people to go head over heels over me. I have my own stead. Perhaps you don't get what I've said. I think you are somehow crossing the line.

It's driving me mad.
Monday, May 24, 2010 12:16 AM
Is it the Singapore Art Festival? Is it the Home Team Convention? Oh Gawd! It's the Navy Open House! :D
Hahah. That's right. Went there with Yihui, Grace, Nasuha, Jiale and Jeevan. (: It's fun. I became childish and act like small kids with Yihui. Which means I'm childish and immature for the whole day. Became a typical Singaporean for today as well. LOLS. Grab all the brochures and freebies. Hahah. xP 
Photos will be posted on facebook after camp. (:
 
 
Forgive and forget. :D

Saturday, May 22, 2010 10:24 PM
Great. I'm not good at facing consequences. But I've to accept the fact.

I'm sorry for lying. :/

Oh no.
Friday, May 21, 2010 8:38 PM
Had CPR training just now. And I realised that my engine is breaking down soon. I've been busy with all kinds of events and activities lately and I guess I'm not eating properly nor resting well. Having occasional headaches,pain in the chest and feeling dizzy almost all the time. Having difficulty breathing as well. It feels like as if my life is ending soon. Hahah. Breathing is now a difficult task for me right now. I don't want to see the doctor. I'm afraid that I will be diagnose with some weird conditions. Gosh. -.-
Oh well. I will stop all this crap. No one cares anyway. 
I like you and only you. (: That's what I posted just now. You said it yourself kay. Don't lie to me, because I believe what you've said is true. :D

I don't understand you at all.
Thursday, May 20, 2010 7:17 PM
There are times where I think the same.

My mama says I can't hang out with universal bitches.
Wednesday, May 19, 2010 7:02 PM
I wanted to post something else. But I'm not done editing yet. So posted this random photo. No meaning behind it. I'm serious. (:
I got back my marks. I got scolded by Wilson daddy. He say he was expecting all As from me. And he demanded an explanation from what he saw on facebook. Explained both situations to him. He was totally pissed off. Because of my results. He is not even my real dad. And he reacted this way. How will my parents react? Shit. :/
I'm driving myself nuts. Like, literally. I have no idea why. I guess I've been thinking too much?
Farah, I'm telling you, it ain't sweet at all. (:

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Tuesday, May 18, 2010 9:54 PM
Fucked up. God, this will be a long post of "dedications" man.

A, Yes, A slip of a tongue and I accidentally told someone. And that someone has been telling others. I told him not to tell already okay. I'm sorry. But I told that person by a slip of the tongue. I'm serious. If you don't believe me, I don't care anymore. I can't do anything.

B, Fuck off. It's because of you I was blamed. I told you not to tell others. You said it in front of so many people. You made me jealous. You remind me of everything. Now, fuck off.

C, I want to make this clear. Some kind of friend you are. You are adding more problems into my life. You are not even helping. Can you stop all these crap?

D, I don't think you will be reading this anyways. But look, I don't know why you are so scared of other people's opinions. I have a lot of doubts.

I still have a lot more to say. But whatever okay. People not giving me a chance to explain stuff. What the hell.

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Tsk.
Monday, May 17, 2010 9:35 PM
This photo just reminds me of your mama. Tsk. I'm in a super bad mood. I don't like it. Hmph. If you are just there to irritate me, just scram can? 
And what the hell do you want from me? I don't entertain stalkers. Yes, I'm talking to everyone of you out there. Tsk. ._.
I'm pissed of. With myself. Now, leave me alone. Why? Coz your mama said so. :/ 

Multi-coloured lights.
Sunday, May 16, 2010 1:02 AM
Why do I look so serious? O: A lot of things going on lately. Most importantly, exams are like, finally over! :D I want to rewatch the last song! It's cool. Hahah. Anyways, my laptop screen cracked into many pieces. I'm serious. Now I'm using a computer screen that's plugged into my laptop. Smart huh? xD Home team exhibition was great! And I have more upcoming events that I'm attending. :D Oh yeah, I have a piece of good news! I'm officially over Milk. :D I'm serious.

In the midst of all this, I fell for you. Should I tell you the truth?  

Thursday, May 13, 2010 10:34 PM
Last paper tomorrow. Hang on Carissa. Cheer up. Tomorrow will be a better day. (:

I don't. Stop assuming things can? I'm "kind" enough to play along. Tsk. 

Plastic rainbow.
Monday, May 10, 2010 10:38 PM
Everthing is happening at the wrong time. People are telling me a lot of things. At the wrong time. I came to know some stuff. At the wrong time. My life is so screwed up. I guess I will have to be optimistic in this kind of situation. And of course, lie to others and my own self about the truth.  

Happy mother's day!
Sunday, May 9, 2010 10:19 AM
(:

Friday, May 7, 2010 11:33 PM
I can't stop thinking about it. That face. You showed me. I can never forget it. You smile after that. During recess. They said you were smiling while looking at me? I don't think so. I will never forget that expression. I don't know you well, but I still care. I was telling myself to give up on you. After that day. I felt hurt. I don't know why. That recess. When I heard that. I tried to cheer myself up. All I can do is pretend I'm happy. I know it's time for me to give up. I'm sure you have your own crush and I'm sure you won't like me anyway. That expression. I don't know why I feel so upset. I guess it was this massive crush I have on you. It's hard to give up. I know. But I will try. I wasn't even suppose to have feelings for you. It is wrong anyways.

He is able who thinks he is able.
11:11 PM

Went to renew my passport. I've got a new passport photo with no cabbage hair! LOL. Like finally. :D Anyways, I think I'm going to be blogging a little lesser next week. Whole week of exams. 

Everything is going wrong. Everything.
I feel so pathetic. Sigh..


  

Movie Marathon!
Thursday, May 6, 2010 8:35 PM
Watch 2 movies with stead and Michelle back to back today. :D Watched the back up plan and iron man 2. It was cool. We like, practically rush out of the hall after the first movie end and we rushed into the next hall. Hahah. But both movies are quite nice. Iron man 2 is quite boring at the beginning though. O:

I should just give up. ): 

I'm sorry.
Wednesday, May 5, 2010 11:03 PM
Today is like, super weird. Hahah. Had 2.4 today. I walk like 3/4 of it. -.- My leg suddenly twitch in pain. Went home with fever? I'm serious. ): I wonder if I should go to school tomorrow. This flu is killing me. Argh. D:
Oh no. I got a bad feeling. About that. Nevermind. Let's just go along with the flow. Looking forward to tomorrow. Movie with Michelle and Stead. :D  

Whatever you've said was true. How did you managed to know what I was thinking of and how I am feeling? You are weird. :/   

A jug fills drop by drop.
Tuesday, May 4, 2010 10:48 PM

Went to the gym just now with Nasuha and Ameerul. :D Now I know how strong ananas is. :P She is like way stronger than me can. -.-" Act strong only larh. Cheyy~~ ;p I realise I'm weak and need to go to the gym more often. I can barely lift a 5kg weight with my left hand. -.-"
Anyways, for the first time in my whole life, I think history and english is kind of tough. Why am I so vain in the first place? I'm now sure I will flunk. ): Nevermind, what's over is over. (: