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Day 6 — A stranger
Saturday, July 31, 2010 7:30 PM
I know this is a letter challenge, but if 'm kind of lazy, I won't post it as letter. :P
Guess what? She's 24. She is from Canada. She's a vegetarian, a nerd wannabe, partially a gamer. She loves English and lit. And she's a bisexual. How coincidental! Right? She is like, the older version of me. :D
She's cool. I found her on tumblr and her tumblr is entertaining.
Heheh.
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Had CPR course today. Got full marks for theory and practical was okay. Heheh. I've got my badge!!!!!!!!! :D
And and, thanks to those who bothers to read my blog. (:
Labels: I want to meet you ASAP. I miss you to the max. ):
Day 5 — Your dreams
Friday, July 30, 2010 8:55 PM
If you define it as goals or aspirations, you'll find my dream silly.
Because my dream is to be a lawyer, to bring justice to people. I blogged about this before, but I will blog about it again. (:
I want everyone to treat each other fairly. You must be wondering, now what? Is Carissa cracking a joke? She call others black and now she want everyone to treat each other fairly? I call people black when they call themselves that, Plus, I'm refraining myself from using that term. And I did call myself red/orange.
I want the whole world to treat each other fairly. The whole world? Carissa, you're insane!
Yes, I am. But that's my dream. I don't want others to experience what I've went through. If they went through all those pain, I want to bring them justice.
If you define dreams as the one you "see" when you're asleep, then...
I don't know how to tell you guys about it. It's hard. You see, I have weird dreams. They will take place in reality as soon as I dreamt about it. Well, that's about 95% of my dreams.
What about the 5% you say? Well, that 5% consists off nonsense, wishes and something that took place before. What do I mean? For example, I once had a dream.... About me going to Changi Airport. And I saw a lot of "stuff" there. You get what I mean. Rubbish.
And what are some of the dreams that came true?
Well, urm, _____ having a crush on me, me and someone getting into a relationship, which is happening right now. (:
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Enough of dreams.
Had napfa. It sucks. My arm hurts again. Will it be a permanent injury this time? Please, I want my USAR next year. Don't let it be a permanent injury.
I'm on cloud nine when you told me that. :D
Day 4 — Your sibling (or closest relative)
Thursday, July 29, 2010 7:37 PM
My apologies to those reading this post. It's time to blog about what I've been bottling up. My heart can't take it anymore. It's full. And it's time to spill some of the contents in it.
You see, I've been trying my best to appreciate life. Trying my best to make lemonade out of the lemons god gave me. It's still sour. Tried adding sugar to it. Too much sugar won't do a soul any good. Right? I joke, laugh, smile. Of course I look happy. Why cry on the spot when something saddening happens? That's insane.
It seems like I should shut my trap. People telling me to shut up nowadays. Well, maybe only 2 peeps. But still... When I don't talk, people ask me what's wrong. You guys tell me to shut up in the first place, right?
No texts from you for days. We didn't talk much either. Was upset for the whole day. And the only thing you asked me was, did I see so and so. I see, so your life revolves around others, not me. Jealousy. It's so overwhelming. Take a knife and kill me. And stop hurting me without realising. Please.
I'm so sorry to all those reading this. I'll post a joke I've been wanting to post since I-don't-know-when, alright?
3 men die and go to heaven. One's a marine, one's a Navy seal, and the last is an army ranger. At the pearly gates, Saint Peter is unsure if he was going to let them in due to their philandering and boorish ways.
He decides to let them in, but gives a strict warning not to have impure thoughts or they will lose their wings and burn in hell. All 3 men walk in, and as a test Saint Peter sends a beautiful blonde angel walking in front of all 3 men.
As the blonde angel bends over and grabs her ankles, the navy seal and the marine lose their wings. As they bent over to pick up their wings, the ranger lost his.
Day 3 — Your parents
Wednesday, July 28, 2010 9:09 PM
Thanks for raising me up. Thanks for the genes. :D Thanks for everything. I have nothing much to say. Thanks for everything. I love you. :D
From. me.
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I know. I ain't good at this kind of stuff. So yeah. I need a study group ASAP. Lots of common test this week and I feel tired. To the max. Anyways, take a look at this.
Labels: I'm just kind of jealous. :/
Day 2 — My Crush
Tuesday, July 27, 2010 8:30 PM
Dear crush,
I can't believe I'm blogging about you. And I hope you'll read this.
So yeah. It has been 2 months and 11 days. Well, my maths sucks. LOL. Anyways, yeah. I can't believe we even got together. We don't have feelings for each other in the 1st place. In the midst of hanging out with you, I've fallen for you. I'm over milk. I'm serious. I don't like her anymore, in fact, I love you. (: Sec 2 camp holds one of the best memories. I still remember the night when you said, can I dig out your eyes and sell them? I was laughing to myself, I can't believe you are actually that cute to ask this kind of questions. :X & I love what you shouted during Jetty Jump. :P
I don't like it when you cross the line. Saying stuff that makes me jealous like, to the max. All this while, I've been bottling up my feelings whenever you make me feel upset and jealous. But I guess it doesn't really matter. At least you make me smile at times and I can't believe you made me smile to myself like I'm insane today. Whenever I see you smile, I'll melt a little inside. :D I know this is all lengthy and cheesy. So to sum up, I wonder if you're over her. But whatever it is, my feelings for you are genuine and I'm over milk. This "letter" is just to let you know, I love you. :DD
P.S, I can't wait for the next 16th! ;)
Love, me. ;D
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Oral was cancelled and there are ant bites on my feet. What the effffffff. I can't believe I wrote all those above. But I did. :D
For people who think I'm just a stupid lesbian, you can eff ohh. Thank you. (:
For once, I've had enough.
Monday, July 26, 2010 8:44 PM
Alright. Today = total disaster. I even forget that we had recess. How smart. I'm losing my focus in class, my bad. Deleted a song or 2 in my playlist, it's being a bitch and it's not playing.
Yesterday, went to expo. Bought my nougat. Hahah. It's expensive sia, $32. But worth it. :D Went to band fiesta after that. Yuhua's performance not bad uh. Hahah. (:
I'm bored and nowadays I have nothing to blog about, so I've decided to do the tumblr 30 days letter challenge thing HERE. Heheh. Let's start. :D
Day 1 — Your Best Friend
Love, me. :D
Why are you so cute? :D Hahah. You're always there to help people. We may not be good friends during primary school, but you are one of the greatest friends I've had now. You may be a little emotional. But who isn't? Right? Just remember not to keep things to yourself if you're sad. I'm here for you if you need me. (: I'm sorry if I scare you with my weird lesbian ways. :X Still remember you sing via msn when you got HFMD when we are in primary school. You're still that cute and you have a wonderful voice. I secretly envy you. Heheh. I look up to you at times. Being hyper and all. Whatever it is, thanks for everything. :D I have a lot of things to say, but I forget what I want to say already. STM uh. :X I will be there for you if you need me, just remember that. Oh yea, I love you. :D
Love, me. (:
Dear Farah chiobu,
We hardly take any shots together! ): Now I can only use this photo. I look so fat in it sia! D: Take more photos together kay? :D Thanks for being the first to realise that particular quality I have. Thanks for everything. You're one of my greatest friends as well. I love you. Friend larh, what you thinking? Chey. No larh. :P Just don't ________ kay. I'm here for you, any problems just voice it out, Carissa the loner will come and save the day! Heheheheh. :P Thanks for being there when I need someone to talk to. Even if I never talk to you about it, you'll realise it and talk to me about it. Thanks chiobu. I love you. :D
Love, me. (:
I'm sorry I didn't do yours until now. I didn't know you read blogs. Hahah. You are super cute. :DD And you can make me laugh like there's no tomorrow. You are great at keeping secrets and you've been there for me everytime I need you. You suck at camwhoring. Chey, no larh. (: I love you, grandpa. :D Hope the anklet will stay for a very very long time and won't snap easily. If it does, let's get another! :D
Love, me. (:
It says best friend. But I can't forget my close friends right? :P
It's only a matter if time, I guess.
Saturday, July 24, 2010 5:44 PM
To sum up, went to concert. Came back. And that's all.
POP photos on facebook already. I have nothing much I want to blog about. I will blog if I find something interesting online kay.
That same old feeling.
I wanted to take a photo together. ):
I miss the old times
Friday, July 23, 2010 9:29 AM
I'm getting very sensitive lately. I can't believe I'm feeling down because of something you said. A sentence can affect my mood for the whole day. Sigh. Feeling rejected and dejected since yesterday. Just because of a "Yarh right!". I give up. I will stop dreaming. I won't get what I want.
Thanks a lot.
I will blog about P.O.P later.
I miss the fun we use to have. We've drifted so far apart. I guess it's the age gap. No matter what,thanks for the memories. (:
Playing with fire.
Tuesday, July 20, 2010 10:32 PM
If you want to be the leader so much, go ahead. Is it really that important? You won't make a good leader if you think that way.
I'm feeling sick and tired. Bearing too much responsibility. The load I'm carrying is too heavy.
I need rest. If not I will faint. Like seriously.
I guess you think I still like milk, ain't you? Sigh. Why won't anyone believe me? I really don't anymore. ):
You don't even read my blog. I guess you only go to her blog. I feel like I'm just a substitute. I feel that you're just fooling around with me. I'm afraid I will lose you. I feel jealous at times too. I want your attention as well. Sigh. I really don't have feelings for her already. :/
You don't ready my blog, so you won't know how I feel. Hahah. I will have to keep my feelings bottled up in my heart again.
Hahah. Alright, off to study for IUQ.
Labels: I don't. Seriously.
You're the best part of my day.
Monday, July 19, 2010 8:42 PM
Okay, so I watched despicable me for the 2nd time today. I want to watch inception. ):
Alright, I kind of freaked out in school a little. Well, I was still freaking out after school. And during lessons, I was like OMG-ing to myself. ._.
So yeah, I'm so tired, I just want to throw everything aside and take a break. I want to sleep and dream of you. Don't anyhow assume okay, I'm talking about Megan Fox here. Chey, no larh. I'm talking about you. Hahah. Jkjk. I sound so despo.
Anyways, I found something fun to do today. Freak people out. I shall continue to freak people out tomorrow. Like what I did to Peiling. Heheh. :P
Labels: Every single 11:11 wish I've made is about you. :D
I want to hold your hand more often, can I? :P
Sunday, July 18, 2010 11:37 PM
Went to get my hair cut and then went to botanical gardens to meet Cherry. :D She gave me the nougat that I've been craving for!!!!!! The original one. Heheh. We were walking around aimlessly for like an hour or so? Went for band fiesta. Going for the next week's band fiesta as well. Planning to record down yuhua's performance. ^^
Oh yeah. I can't believe Cherry was stupid enough to follow me. It has been a long time since I went to orchard and we weren't sure where the bus stop was. We walk a whole round and found the bus stop near where we were in the first place. LOL. See, the result of follow a retarded rojak. :P
Oh yea. And she waste food also uh. Play with food. -.-
Okay, I know you guys are now like " Shut up larh Carissa, you and your stupid lesbian partner." Hahah. I know you jealous uh. Cause she's cute. Chey. Oh gawd. Can't believe I just said that. -.-"
Kay, bye. Tired uhks. Nougat! \m/ :D
Labels: Jar of hearts.
I don't care about what the others say.
Friday, July 16, 2010 9:00 PM
Had cross country at japanese garden. Did recording of time for sec 1s. Fastest for the sec 1 boys was 11 minutes 25 seconds. For 4.8 km. Crazy much.
Was completely drenched while walking to lakeside. I can't believe my phone survived. Went to Cherry's house to dry myself up. Had lunch at mac with the rest and went home.
Running a slight fever. I still have a busy day tomorrow. Blood donation drive and NDP preview. Haircut on Sunday. No~!!!!!!!!!! My mum wants me to cut my hair to shoulder length. ): She want me to cut my fringe to bangs. My 5 months without any haircut!!! All gone on Sunday. D:
Please mum, forget aobut my haircut. :/
Oi, fake hand girl, 2nd month eh. :D
Oh yea, before I go, a blond joke for you guys!
The local sheriff was looking for a deputy, so a blonde went in to try out for the job. "Okay," the sheriff drawled, "what is 1 and 1?"
"Eleven," she replied.
The sheriff thought to himself, "That's not what I meant, but she's right." "What two days of the week start with the letter 'T'?"
"Today and tomorrow."
He was again surprised that the blonde supplied a correct answer that he had never thought of himself.
"Now, listen carefully: Who killed Abraham Lincoln?"
The blonde looked a little surprised herself, then thought really hard for a minute and finally admitted, "I don't know."
"Well, why don't you go home and work on that one for a while?"
So, the blonde wandered over to the beauty parlor, where her pals were waiting to hear the results of the interview. The blonde was exultant. "It went great! First day on the job and I'm already working on a murder case!"
ILYTTM. :D
Labels: Because my feelings for you are genuine.
Wednesday, July 14, 2010 9:28 PM
Oh no. I'm sick. :/ Not physically. Not mentally. :p I'm super crazy over my obsession. I start to talk to myself at night about it. Creepy much. :/
Whatever it is, I'm going head over heels over you. :x
Yeah. I can't wait for a few more days. :D
No time to be meek and mild
Monday, July 12, 2010 10:08 PM
Well, as most of you know my race... :/
Peeps around me calls me blond. -.-" I keep thinking I'm a brunette. So what am I? Tell me what you guys think. :D I'm sure no one will. No one reads this. Hahah.
I need to sleep. Today sucks. Like to the max.
Can you stop being so... URGH.
Change change change.
Labels: I think I'm too obsessed with you. :/
Despicable me.
Sunday, July 11, 2010 8:42 PM
Short update to keep myself entertained. :D Off to do homework.
5 more days. Friday. :D
Labels: You are my only obsession.
Living life in disguise
Saturday, July 10, 2010 1:23 PM
Hahah. I'm going to try something new next week. :D Well, that will be another story. For now, let's focus on reflecting on what I did and what had happened this week.
Hmm... Weird dreams haunting me again. School sucks. Maths = horrible. As in, the homework. I let my attitude and moods run wild. I guess I was too tired. Sigh. I need to be more like last year. Ace student and all.
I dreamt of you again. I don't like it. It was just a photo. Get over it larh Carissa. Hahah.
Whatever it is. I know I won't do it. Unless... No, it won't happen. It's about myself. It's about vanity and pride. ):
Labels: Hey. I find you irritating.
Its summer and I'm behind the wheel
Monday, July 5, 2010 12:06 AM
I feel very hurt. I didn't know you think of me like that. ):
Labels: the c word. lol.