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Wednesday, September 29, 2010 10:14 PM
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I'm so bored~ Urgh. Exams are super near and I'm still in the don't-want-to-study-mood. I'm so going to flunk my maths paper. I don't know how to do a lot of questions. Have to start tomorrow. If not will die. Argh. 
Like I say, time to blog about random peeps. Let's see, Miss Nam right? O:

Eh hamster, I know you're not my hamster. I never say you're my hamster. But I'm a fish. I call people by their animal names. Anyways, see, how kind of me to blog about you. :D Okay, first of all. Thanks for being a great friend. No, toiletpaper. Hahah. I love the fact we can crap a lot and annoy people together. The power of paper gang. :D I forget what I want to blog about leyy. I took 15 mins of my life to plan and now I forget lerh. Urgh. Nevermind. Summary? Thanks love. For everything. :D 

Oh yea, random fact, I wanted to cut my hair today, didn't get a chance to. At least I bought neon coloured pencils. :D Or is it neon colourpencils? :/
Tomorrow, Kartina, your turn. ;D 

The pot calling the kettle black.
Tuesday, September 28, 2010 10:33 PM
Yea. You are one. (:
I guess the only thing fun about today is actually going to Ely's house. :D The reason why it's fun is because a cat and a fish hacked our accounts and we lose Ely's hamster. I know, no link. (: Anyways, to her, people who use sia a lot are called given a term called "sia sia asshole". Cute huh? :D Imma fish, Imma fish, Imma,Imma,Imma fish. :D Jieying, I blog about you tomorrow kay? I need to convey a message here. Sorry love. I promise, tomorrow. (:


To you,
I've been asking around for opinions and advises. You used me as a substitute for months.  I would like to kindly remind you, I'm not a substitute. Secondly, yes, I wish we can be close friends. But what you've said today, are you doing it on purpose? Seriously. I feel awkward and I'm lost for words. It's just weird.
And by the way, I found out what you've said to others. Thanks for acting and thanks for pitying me. I'm a fool to think you feel the same way. Oh well, I'm glad it's over and I can't wait to move on. If I can't, I will make myself try it the hard way. So make things easier for me. Thanks. :D

I left a bad impression on you. ):
Monday, September 27, 2010 11:39 PM
Exams are near. I'm still not studying. :/
Anyways, I told GRACE I'm going to blog about her. So here goes:

HEY GREY SI. :D You very "cute". Make me wanna puke. :D Your favourite line. Hahah. I want to blog about you because I think I owe you a big thank you. Yes. Surprisingly. Carissa knows basic manners. :D You never fail to entertain me when I'm bored during science class. You put up to my attitude. Even though you're super loud,noisy and irritating at times. -,- But hey. You're quite a nice person. Because you give me FOOD. Hahah. Just joking. You're a great friend. You never fail to bring sweets and chocolates to entertain me. And I bet you didn't realise this. But you never fail to make me laugh or smile when I'm upset. Like today. I was feeling down. You cheered me up and can't stop laughing. And how you encourage people without realising. Telling me you will bring me sweet if I win some competition (inter-unit quiz). Hahah. Seriously, thanks. :D And and, you owe me a trip to your house after major exams. Only after that I will treat you to Nasi Lemak. :D 

Hey, I will like to thank all my friends larh. I mean, Grace said that my blog is interesting, so I blog about her lorh. Hahah. I will play a game. I will dedicate a blog post a day to one of my friends. How's the deal? :D Or I will blog about different topics. Train for english paper 1. :DDDD
Anyways, I got my new wallet~ Yeah man! (:

I'm tired. Will be back tomorrow. :D

You're right. I guess we weren't meant for each other. It's doesn't matter anymore. I'm learning to move on. I HAVE TO move on. (: 

I wonder if I'm trying too hard.
Sunday, September 26, 2010 6:55 PM
Hahah. I literally LOL-ed at this. :B
I'm so bored, I'm back to blogging. Urgh. Boredom kills. Oh. Check this out.



Siao. -.- I wonder if she's mentally unstable or what.
And people. Stop being so narrow minded. Thanks. :D

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12:36 PM
I know I look weird. I look like I'm in an awkward situation. AHAHAH. :X Anyways, if you're observant enough, you can see we've coloured eyes. One pair of green eyes and one pair in a shade of i-dont-know what colour. The box says pure hazel, but it became brownish green when  wore it. URGH. Similar colour to my hair somemore! Hahah. :DYesterday was greattttt. Not really. But it's the last jalan raya with 2e5. ): At least we took lots of pictures. Hahah. And yesterday was super the emptional. Hahah. I mean. Laugh. Stop. Laugh again. What are you thinking? Hahah. :DDD 
I'm obsessed with the guitar right now~ Woo~ My blackie~ :D 

Friday, September 24, 2010 8:21 PM
Reflected.
There's always a brightside of life. Life still goes on.
I guess it might be a blessing in disguise? Or perhaps a lesson learnt? 
I don't know uh. I mean, I thought about all these. And even wonder if I made the right decision to stay in Yuhua and rejected the place I can get in Cedar. Because if I didn't reject it, all these wouldn't have happened.
I realise I have to stop all this crap. Like out of a sudden. 
Carissa is finally enlightened!  Not. -.-
I'm crapping. This shows Carissa is okay! :D
Byeee. 

6:09 PM
Hey, this post will contain a lot of childish crap from me. Don't read this if you hate me.
First of all, I broke down for the 8 time aready.
I wonder why I'm still thinking of you so much. Do you know that you're the first person who successfully make me cry when it comes to breaking up? Crying 8 times in a same day, for the same person.
I saw this coming yesterday, I told myself to be prepared. I told myself, no matter what. Smile. Keep your cool. Pretend you're okay even if you're not. NEVER cry in front of people.
I didn't. I read your letter and my heart sank. I knew I was gonna cry. I tried distracting myself. It didn't work. Broke down in the toilet. I felt horrible.
I was told that you cried. I have no idea why. People ask me what happened. My mind went blank and I end up breaking down again. I saw you. It made me felt worse.
Hahah. How childish can I get? I don't dare to face reality. I'm going to wait for you to change your relationship status on facebook. I don't have the heart to do it. I know I will end up crying.
Wait, what's the point? I'm already crying while typing this. But still.. I'll let you do it.
As far as I know, you're really awesome. You changed my mindset on lesbians. I use to hate them. Until a few months ago, I got really close to you. When we first get together, I told myself, no way, I will never fall for her. I'll just trying things out. So it will never happen. It did happen though. And I had a really awesome time when we were together. Thanks for the memories. I got to admit, I think my feelings for you won't fade away for quite some time.
Thanks for everything. I have fond memories of us. And I had a great experience. (:
I guess I'm going to concentrate on exams for now. I don't know whether I can concentrate on my studies.
Move on, Carissa, move on.

When lies become the truth.
Thursday, September 23, 2010 7:07 PM
Shitty day. ): It has been a very longggggggg timeeeeeeee since my sucidal thoughts are back. Welcome back, but you'll have to get out of my life soon. I almost died, thanks to you. Yes, I'm not retarded, that's why it's called suicidal thoughts right? It's suppose to make you fool around with the grim reaper and see if you come back alive. :D
I did. Well, thanks to A for pulling me back if not I'll be in the hospital because of a car accident right now. On the phone with him now. :DD Hahah, thanks son. :P
I guess pms can kill you. This is the worse one I've ever experienced. Please. I can't concentrate during both tests thanks to it. And I broke down in the bus too. Paisehh to the max. :/ You can see me laughing away for a moment and showing the ): face for another. Goshhh. Can't imagine if both sexes on earth have pms. O.O
EYE in 2 weeks time. So not prepared for maths. Time to study and hit the stadium. Why go jogging? It helps relieve stress. :D Tried it last year, instead of jogging, I hit the gym. It works kay. :DD
I still have the something-bad-will-happen feeling though. :/

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How dumb of me, how smart of you. ):
Wednesday, September 22, 2010 9:21 PM
I feel so shitty. I took a long nap and I'm now having high fever. School sucks a lot for me. I can't concentrate on lessons. My worst enemy, PMS, made things worse. ): You caught me staring at you in the morning, You still smile. Hahah. I guess it's the second time huh? 
Change of original plans and went to Nasuha's house. Changed plans again and went back home. Wanted to go buy my gibson pick but oh well. 
Came back home and I thought of a whole lot of nonsense. Had a horrible dream. Woke up and I felt dizzy. Had a burning sensation on my cheeks. High fever. _|_ Worse still, stomach cramp. I end up thinking about some stuff and I start to curse non stop. At everyone. I'm sick and tired of everyone. Out of sudden. Sheesh. 
Damn, you never trusted me. You lied. You hide things from me. And I have a bad feeling, I will end up like that particular person. I want to tell you everything, straight in your face. Argh, Whatever. I don't want us to end up in a fight again. You're so selfish. Goshh.
I'm really sick of everything. I want to throw everything aside for once and sleep for days without waking up. Can I? ): 
I don't want to go to school tomorrow. Not because of tests. I'm not that retarded.  
I will go on "silent mode" when it comes to sharing my feelings, especially with you.

Afterlife
Tuesday, September 21, 2010 11:19 PM
I'm having PMS and I'm not in a very good mood right now. So sleepy. ): I can't strum ehh. Damn it. Stupid arm cramp. Currently learning stairway to heaven though. :D So nice~
I'm so bored. My unread email in my inbox officially hit 10 000. Thanks to facebook. -.- I'm like, trying to multi task here. Eating, learning stairway to heaven,blogging and deleting email at the same time. Did I say listening to afterlife? :P Addicted to A7x already. :D
Went to jurong west with a few Peiling, Ameerul and Aaron. Hahah. Haunted KTV. O: Went to jp, bought class stuff and went to frontier cc's yamaha. O: Did art planning with Peiling at the library and we chat about loads of stuff. 
Time for me to burn it. I need to. Can't cling on to old memories huh? I will burn it. I will. :D Even though it's kind of cruel. :/ Oh well. I'll still have to do it.
I still feel so.. Urgh. -.- Stupid PMS. Go and die larh.

Carissa made ice. :D
Monday, September 20, 2010 10:41 PM
I hate art! Argh. I have no idead what to draw for EYE. Speed? Personality? Dang, EYE in less than 3 weeks. D: I'm not concentrating on my studies. To obsessed with computer games and playing guitar. ): My fingers and arm hurts kay. Like, a whole lot. Zzz. I should seriously stop. Argh. Gotta say goodbye to my addictions for now. Exam period coming and I'm still like ~ ._.
I need sleep. Badly. Urgh. Oh well, at least today was a great day. :D

Essential yet appealed.
Friday, September 17, 2010 10:55 PM
I survived today. :D Today's a lucky day~ (: Went to school with fever. Hahah. Got back the marks for 2nd comprehension test. Was quite satisfied with the marks. Miss Shamsiah call Miss Lee and Jeremy and I end up running about. I was feeling dizzy all the way after that. I keep sweating non-stop and I felt that I could faint anytime. :/ I was worried about home econs. I was dizzy and I'm afraid the outcome won't be nice. But my dish for home econs turned out better than what I've expected. Thank god. :D Had to settle the painting stuff and me and Jeremy had to report late for training. Miss Lim was kind enough to allow us to rest. And we got our SANA badge! So small and cute. Hahah. :D Dinner with Mdm Chung, Faizah, Ridha and Jeremy at pizza hut. So much laughter. :DD Oh yeah, I'm so gonna flunk my chinese oral. Was tested by Mdm Chen. O:
And and, dad gave me money to buy new clothes and guitar! :DDDDD


I'm sorry I can't go home together with you. ): I really wanted to. But I promise Mdm Chung and I forget about the dunner. Sorry uhks. I will get to see you tomorrow. And and, I'm glad to hear that. "That" is for me to know and for you to find out. Hahah. 

Just the way you are.
Thursday, September 16, 2010 10:35 PM
I can't believe we don't have any pictures and I have to use this. -.- But oh well, there's still you and I in it. :D 
Science test was postponed. After I studied so hard. >: Got back english common test and I'm happy with my results. :D I'm dead though. I kind of skipped CL class. Do take note, I used kind of, not skipped. Which mean I didn't mean to. :X
Went to buy ingredients and crockery for HE test tomorrow. Just reached home. Gawd, I'm so tired. D:
Training tomorrow. I got a feeling I will faint. Because I don't plan to sleep tonight. Do homework, study for test, try out for tomorrow's HE. Polish boots, iron uniform~~~ Urgh. So tired. D: 

 Thanks for the kinder bueno. :D Appreciate those M&Ms kay. I resort to eating maggi because of those M&Ms. Hahah. It's worth it for you uh. Happy 4th monthsary. :DD I love you truckloads~ (: Oh, and I'm sorry I couldn't find the message. I guess it was in another phone. I will try to check it out asap alright? (:

Wednesday, September 15, 2010 8:03 PM
I found this while looking through my old blog. The very 1st one. Hahah. That was uhh, I think not long after I first rebonded my hair? Yeah. Brings back memories.
I'm off to study. For now. Science test tomorrow. Chem. Urgh. x.x 

Please, say it ain't so.
Tuesday, September 14, 2010 11:47 PM
School was okay. God, please, guide me through all these. I know you ain't this cruel. Just grant either one of my wishes. Answer my prayers. Please and thank you. You told me no guys, you didn't say no girls. Plus, just one last time, help me. Answer my prayers like you use to. My last. I promise. My last. 
I will change for you. I won't get pissed. Alright? Every now and then, I will check my phone, hoping that you will text, saying that you'll take back your words. It's just 2 days away. Don't do this. You have no idea how heartbreaking those words are. Words can kill. I know it's my fault. I'm sorry. 

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Feeling ugly.
Monday, September 13, 2010 10:09 PM
I'm tired. I haven't study. I'm so dead. I wanted to quit blogging. But my hands got all itchy again and I can't stop myself.
Today is a very "lucky" day. I spilled coke over my new kebaya. I'm lucky I wore the blue one and not the white one. The traditional white one is super expensive man! Phew. Oh well, I learnt my lesson.
Why must I be a Peranakan? ): Relatives will say the same old thing. "Sayang! Look at you! So big already! Sec4/poly already uh? Ohh! So besar! Don't look like sec 2! Come come, eat more kuih!" Yes, they say the same thing every year. So, I'm like a sec 4 to them every year? -.- Then when I'm sec 4, I guess they will say "Married already? :D" Sigh, I only like it because of the kuih and the mix blood. Oh well, all those nice kuih will make up for it. OHH! Did I mention that I see them twice a year? CNY as well. And I'm still sec4 to them. Sigh. -.- Oh yarh, most of them celebrate CNY only. Only that minority celebrate both. Mixed to da core. LOL.
Okay, I'm crapping. I guess I'm too tired. Oh well, just a short post to keep my blog alive. :D

No life couple. :D
Friday, September 10, 2010 10:41 PM
Congratulate me people. I've officially put on 4kg. -.- I've been eating loads of junk food lately. ): Time to hit the gym. I want my flat stomach back. D:
I'm bored. URGH. I couldn't sleep yesterday because I was bored. And I got a feeling I can't sleep again. -.- I downloaded alot of games today because of boredom. Gosh, boredom kills.
I WANT GO KTV. I NEED TO SING LARH.
Nah, not really, it's because uhh, I've been singing at home and my mum tell me to go ktv to sing. She wants to watch tv, and she says I'm disrupting her. -.-
Oh well, I guess my singing to nice already. Ahahah. Just joking. :X 
I really need to touch my homework already. If not I'm dead. This is already considered procrastinating. :/ 

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The beauty of neon colours. :D
12:38 AM
Happy 1st anni addicts! I love you guys! :D I wanted to do dedications, but I'm quite lazy ya' know. :P So I'm going to keep this short and sweet. Thanks for everything. Including not finding me extra even though I join late. (: I know I ain't really in this clique for a year, not with you guys all the time and don't always hang out with you guys. But I'm trying my best to catch up with you guys nowadays. :D I love you guys to the max! (:Went to Sentosa with addicts. :D 4d magix extreme log ride and desperados. A hot angmoh gave us 2 tickets. I mean a hot blond women. :P Proceeded to Palawan, got super wet and played with sand. I was soooooo bored. And I did this..
I'm not the one who took a photo of it kay. Jieying did. Can't even see the Y. D: Never. No, it's not cherri, it's cherry. -.-" Who cares? As long as I know who am I referring to can lerh. :DMeet up with Nasuha and Cherry after that. Bought heels. Gosh, I hate heels. -.-
I love this photo. My eyes are dark brownnnnnnnnnn. :D 

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Elated.
Tuesday, September 7, 2010 11:09 PM
I know I'm ugly. But I love myself to much already. Hoohoo. I'm sorry I didn't blog for quite sometime. I was busy. Well, I hang out with Nasuha a lot. Started all from Sunday? Went to I.T fair with her, went to her mum's stall, went to her house to do CME project planning. Sleepover. Went back home for 20 mins to change and print photos for CME. Meet the rest, do CME. Hand up. Went to Queensway, look for shops where we can make our J.A.C jacket at. Went to ikea. Played. Went to Geylang with Nasuha and her family. Bought my Baju raya and reach home at 2 a.m. Went out today again. To the library. And went to break fast at pastamania. With Nasuha, Ameerul and Clarence. 
See, told ya, I hang out with Nasuha a lot for the past 3 days. Gosh. Barely spend time at home sia. -.- It was fun though. :D
I shan't spend time blogging or now. I can chat with you~~~~~~ :D 
And to _____, you hurt my pride. Walao, you have a crush on me, my problem uh? Go tell other people about that. Eff you. _|_

Friday, September 3, 2010 9:43 PM
Went to I.T. fair. Bought audio technica earpiece. :D There's this cute guy there. Benjamin. Hahah. He said bye to me eh~ :DD So cute. To be frank, I hardly find guys cute kay. And there's this chiobu there. She looks like someone from our school. Hahah. Comex 2010, one of the best I.T fairs ever. Everything half price. Hahah. 

My life suck a lot lately. A whole lot. I tried smiling whenever I feel jealous, pissed and upset. But I can't, it wasn't even a day and it wore me out. Especially today, I can't take it anymore. I'm always in love with someone whose obsessed with someone else. Fuck. You want me to die so much so be it. And you, I'm not like what you say. You don't have to rub it in my face. I swear it fucking hurts. For god's sake. I know my own future. 

Peek-a-boo.
12:09 AM
I'm back! Migraine attacks throughout the whole day. I guess I'm too tired? Whatever uh. School was very slack-ish today. CD shelter visit after school. Short visit. Anyways, slapyourballs. HAHAH. :X Inside joke uhks. Was in the bus, on the way home. Suddenly remembered about Grace's present. Went to JP with tartar and called Jiale to meet him. Jiale went off soon after we met him. Jeremy and I bought this "expensive" gift for her. Hahah. Eye+van = ? IVAN! LOL. Sorry, random.I'm bored. I still havent finish chinese homework. Shit. Just realised that there's like 4 more weeks to EOY. I need to buck up. I'm like, slacking A LOT. Sheesh. D:
Let's be guai for once. Off to complete the leftover chinese homework. Bye~ :D