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Thursday, February 24, 2011 8:27 PM
I doubt anyone is reading this. And don't bother to if you happen to pass by. I'm not worth your time.Problems. One after another. I faced all of it in a very positive manner. Telling myself, hey, just look on the bright side of life. It's only the start of a new year! But it got worse. Everything hit me at once. I just can't take it anymore.
I tried my best. Best out of 52. So proud of myself. It motivated me. Told myself to work harder.
And then I freaking fell. And skidded on the parade square. People, most of them, "Best trainee, can fall?" "Tsk tsk. Best trainee, fall down. Haiyo." I'm still human. It's just a title, to motivate me and drive me further. Smiled, no big deal, right? People are just jealous, right?
And then, finally, I passed my amaths test. Proved Mrs Ko wrong. Hard work did not go to waste. And when I ask my friends for help, "Pass your test what, need help meh?" Ouch. Went out with you people, thought I can forget about all the stress I had. Felt super left out. Among you guys. And worse still, I lost my amaths book.
And I was busy. Drown myself in work. Went back. Saw them. Oh okay. Disappointed. But I felt happy for them as well. I just don't know what to do at that time. Because I know rumors will start. Soon. Rush off. And you guys said so much about me huh? "Normal larh, she gets pissed every time." "Carissa black face sia." He told me to stay. I didn't. I don't even know whether he is really shocked.And you people, is it that funny? I was freaking shocked, taken aback, pissed, upset. Went home. I thought you people were there for me when you guys texted me. But you guys said those kind of stuff.
And then I freaking fell. And skidded on the parade square. People, most of them, "Best trainee, can fall?" "Tsk tsk. Best trainee, fall down. Haiyo." I'm still human. It's just a title, to motivate me and drive me further. Smiled, no big deal, right? People are just jealous, right?
And then, finally, I passed my amaths test. Proved Mrs Ko wrong. Hard work did not go to waste. And when I ask my friends for help, "Pass your test what, need help meh?" Ouch. Went out with you people, thought I can forget about all the stress I had. Felt super left out. Among you guys. And worse still, I lost my amaths book.
And I was busy. Drown myself in work. Went back. Saw them. Oh okay. Disappointed. But I felt happy for them as well. I just don't know what to do at that time. Because I know rumors will start. Soon. Rush off. And you guys said so much about me huh? "Normal larh, she gets pissed every time." "Carissa black face sia." He told me to stay. I didn't. I don't even know whether he is really shocked.And you people, is it that funny? I was freaking shocked, taken aback, pissed, upset. Went home. I thought you people were there for me when you guys texted me. But you guys said those kind of stuff.
Was late for school. Ignored. You people, glanced, ignored. Bear with it Carissa. Smile. You came up to me. "Carissa! I was disappointed in you! How can you not be selected? Why did you let ___ & ___ get it your way? You ah! Why? So disappointed!" Do you think I want it to turn out this way? It's okay. I keep smiling. Was ignored. People keep saying I'm dumb. Yeah. Bear with it. Ignored and left out. Saw you people, having so much fun without me.
And then they came up to me. She told me. Shocked. Upset. Speechless. I bear with it. Went off. Felt like a loner. Saw you. I wanted to tell you to call me as I need you. But you told her to ignore me. Said I have no life. Held back my tears. Smiled and walk off. So much for best friend? Do you know what I've been going through? Came back. You act like nothing happened. Meeting. Bullshit. Barely anyone came. Found out that there is so much problems to settle within the board.
Saw him. Talked to him about that. He said it was because she wanted me to concentrate on the board as I have good leadership skills. Excuses. Found out that people are going around saying I am dumb as I was offered but I rejected. They said I am best out of 52 from the west, but not even the best 8 in school. I didn't put in effort. They said I'm dumb. So much sacrifices, yet all go down the drain.
And you. One of my closest friends last year. Ignored me. You use to cheer me up when I'm down. But just now, you pretend you didn't even freaking see me. So much for that anklet, our friendship.
A lot of people hit my leg in the bus. And when I wanted to get down, my bag strap got stuck to the seat. No one freaking offer any help. I missed my stop. I lost my ezlink card.
Went home. Parents scold me like there's no tomorrow. Teacher called, complain about me not meeting their expectations. I told parents I'm facing a lot of difficulties. Two words. "Your problem." Wow.
A lot of people hit my leg in the bus. And when I wanted to get down, my bag strap got stuck to the seat. No one freaking offer any help. I missed my stop. I lost my ezlink card.
Went home. Parents scold me like there's no tomorrow. Teacher called, complain about me not meeting their expectations. I told parents I'm facing a lot of difficulties. Two words. "Your problem." Wow.
Then I realised. Friends? Bullshit. No one ever really care. Family? Yeah. You guys only care about that freaking dog.
My patience. Snapped. So much for bright side of life? Can I say FML now?
No.one.will.understand.
Labels: I need a fucking break.
If I die young.
Monday, February 7, 2011 1:57 AM
Sort out my thoughts as well. I mean, I've been whining non stop about my old carefree life and how busy I am and whatsoever problems I have. And then something just sort of hit me. Yes, who don't yearn for their old carefree life? But hey. O's are like, next year? And uhh, everyone is busy nowadays. And comparing my problems to other people's, mine is just a mere setback. It's not like I'm going to die of cancer or whatever life-threatening disease.
So, school starts in another few hours time and I can't sleep. I'm not done with chinese homework and I'm not prepared for school. Oh well. The results of procrastinating. :X
Okay, my right palm is itching right now, I'm about to lose money. Nooooooooooooo~ Whatever. It's just a myth.
Life goes on~~~~~ :D