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Te amo. :D
Wednesday, June 30, 2010 11:53 PM
Epic! :D Ain't Kartina cute? She set this even though I'm ugly. Thanks! You very cute uh. Hahah. ;D Alright, let's post random crap. (:
Anyways, I was on facebook, and I was doing friends Interview. I came across this particular question, I skip and skip and skip. That very same question pop out again! O: 

Guess who is it. LOL. If you're smart enough, you will know who. :D Talking about this reminds me of English class. Shared photos of SLC with the class. Brings back memories. Now I miss SLC a whole lot again. SLC rules! (Y) Oh yeah, the whole class, even Mrs Foo saw my relationship status. I was embarrassed to the freaking core (DUHH,WHOLE CLASS + TEACHER SAW IT) and I wanted to cover it. What did I do? I cover my relationship status with my fingers. On the laptop screen. I've totally forgotten that the class is looking at the screen, not the laptop screen! This shows I'm retarded. -.-" Mrs Foo was asking whether it is real. Gosh. Close call. If she know it's for real, I guess she will be in shock and Mdm Huzaimah will come to know. -.-" Phew. 
Hmm... Carissa, time for a change. Remember, charisma. :/

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We danced underneath the candelabra~
Tuesday, June 29, 2010 10:53 PM
Pastamania! :D Oh well. I can't stop sneezing. Sheesh. :/ Should I go to school tomorrow? Hmm... Anyways, ignore my last post. It's all emo and crappy. Well, I'm stll upset, but ,must look on the brightside of life! There's pastamania! :D 

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Did I cross the line?
Monday, June 28, 2010 9:43 PM
I guess I was never a good leader and a good friend. I only think for myself. I don't think for others. I should just keep quiet, like what you've said. Crying over small matters, I'm useless huh? I guess I can't help it anymore. I'm trying my best at whatever I'm doing. I'm trying too hard. I will keep to myself from tomorrow onwards. I will not talk about myself unless I'm forced to. I will change the way I do things. 1st day of school and it sucks.

I doubt you will be reading this, but if you are, I just want you to know, I was lying about it. Out of confusion and partially because of jealousy, I guess. I know you won't see this anyway. You will be at her blog or not even reading blogs at all. Please tell me you will be reading this, it's hard to tell you face to face. And I'm sorry for whatever I did. 

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All I need is a wish.
Thursday, June 24, 2010 11:28 PM
Hey people. I'm not commiting suicide, don't worry. Hahah. I just think the world will be a better place without me. :D
Anyways, I'm having street sales tomorrow. ^^ Flyer job after that. Hmm.. I'm still not done wih homework. ): Back to flyer job. Anyways, I was doing door to door flyer distributing and when I went to one house, I was about to put the flyer, I sense something staring at me. I turn and look and I saw this kind of chinese life-size doll for the dead. Buddhists, mostly Taoists,burn it for the spirits wandering in hell to give them a partner. Anyways, back to the story. It was sitting on the sofa and staring at me and it gave me the shock of my life. Efffffffff. -.- 
I'm sure this means I'm going to die soon. :D Be prepared people. Burn me a lesbian partner when I die. LOL. :P 

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I wonder.
Wednesday, June 23, 2010 11:28 PM
What will happen, if I die out of sudden? Like, die one day, or just can't wake up tomorrow? Will I go to hell / heaven? Or will I see a whole new world? What will happen to my soul? What will happen to people around me?
Hmm, J.A.C will become J.A, because Carissa is gone, leaving Ameerul and Jiale. Nasuha will lose a best friend. One less cadet in NCDCC, Rota 4, which means, no more big headed action babi cadet. (: No more bossy class chairwoman, no more shouting and yelling. 2e5 can do whatever they like. (: Cherry will lose her girlfriend. My parents will lose a daughter, which they keep scolding nowadays, unlike last time. ): My dog can't bite anyone anymore. My dad will stop complaining about me, making him spend money, up till $3000 per month. Mdm Chen will have a peaceful class. (: One less member in Candy Addicts, the bowtie gang and Okay gang. Isn't that better? (: 
Life will be better without me right? Hahah. I'm not afraid of death anyway. Why not die, Carissa? Why not sleep forever and never wake up? Hahahah! (:

Another topic. Hmm.. What about leadership? ECs, class chairperson and all those. SLC participant., blah blah. Do I deserve all these? No, I don't. I can't even lead. Hahah, how stupid. People say I'm a good leader? I don't even agree. I can't win people's heart, this proves that a lot of people hate me, how can I even lead? Hahahah. (:

I'm sure no one understands what I'm crapping about in this post. Just random thoughts. No one cares anyway. :D

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Give me some time.
Tuesday, June 22, 2010 11:54 PM
Went to KTV with Jieqi, Zihui, Peiling, Aaron, Sebas and Mateen. The KTV suck. :/ Oh! Saw Vennice playing pool there. Anyways, back to the KTV thing. Cheat money lorh. Zzz. All the songs like shit. Room also. -.-" Jieqi left early for tuition. ): But, still quite fun. Heheh.
Played pool after that. Hahah. Mateen had to place one of his leg on the pool table. Pool was quite fun I guess? I got 3 M&M for $1. Just my luck. Sigh.
Oh, and my dad finally let me go for training! Yes! No more sneaking out! Need to buy the old folk's hamper stuff tomorrow. I really need time to rest. Just found out that a lot of people ain't going for Endeca's outing. ):

How I wish time could just freeze at that very moment. I know I was upset before that. But I was glad to see you. (: Can you stop being so cold towards me? Please? ):

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Starry eyed.
Monday, June 21, 2010 10:27 PM
I''m so lucky. Phew, my mum didn't scold me for sneaking out to go for cca and to meet Nasuha. She was like saying it's wrong of my dad as it's my dad's fault and he is too much as he didn't want me to go for cca. :D Oh gosh, thanks mum. (:
But my dad found out that I went for ncdcc training and he was like staring at me just now. He saw my uniform in the washing machine. -.-"
My mum was like asking me just now, "you really like girls? are you really a lesbian?" I lied to her. Sheesh. It's hard to tell her about this kind of stuff. So I had to lie. I'm sorry mum. But I can't choose who I like. I guess I'm different from the others? ):

I should try my best to get over you, even though everything seems to remind me of you. 

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The fear.
12:56 AM
Hahah. Wanted to play desert song on the guitar. Epic fail. I know. I don't want to polish boots yet. :X Oh well, I have no life. Hahah. Okay, I swear from today onwards, I'm going to study everyday for 2 hours. That way, I will finish my homework. :D
I realise I've been blogging late at night or when it's midnight. I know, it's weird. Hmm.. Who cares? So long as I blog right? Hahah. :p
Great, I just fought with my dad and he dare me to swear I will never like guys again. And I really did. And I made it worse. I told him I'd rather like girls then guys. And he was like shouting at me "Because you currently like a girl!" What the effffffffffffffffff. O:
Great, now my mum is overreacting. My dad is angry at me and it all started from my kitchen that caught fire because of my dad. -.-"
I'm grounded from going to school and cca now. Great. But I'm sneaking to school later. Shhhhhhh. No uh, I'll beg him to let me go for cca. If he don't allow I'll have to sneak out. Tskk.

Oh no. I'm still not over you. What should I do? I'm sure that dream from last time will haunt me again. Urgh. 

Step to the beat of my heart.
Saturday, June 19, 2010 6:35 PM
Went to the concert yesterday. Not bad uhks. (: I really don't want to talk much about it. It will pretty much spoil my mood. :/
Supper after concert. Reach home super late. I woke up today. And I saw blood under my nails. I freaked out straight away. I wonder where it's from. 

Hahah. I realise I was pretty dumb. Being optimistic and all. Why am I so stupid? Giving myself hope and escaping reality. Hahah. I give up. How I wish someone can tell me what to do now.

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Friday, June 18, 2010 3:22 PM
I don't feel like going to the concert, but I have to. Sigh. I will have to face it then. I will update later, bye.

I don't know how to convey my feelings.
12:34 AM
I know I'm ugly. So shut up. This is my blog, i post whatever I like. Lols. 
So, class meeting. I'm so sorry. I threw a small tantrum just now. PMS. Seriously. Sorry 2e5. ): It was okay, it's just that, out of so many people, only 5 are willing to really sing. What the eff man.
I'm addicted to folding hearts,thanks to Aaron korkor. Hahah. Must be wondering how come I call Aaron Lim Korkor. Long story. (* for people who don't understand what korkor is, korkor means elder brother -.-)
You see, we went to Daiso and we started playing. We were acting like small kids and Peiling became our mum. Aaron = Boy , Me = girl, Farah = girl girl. Hahah! And I was asking obscene questions.

LOL. Yeah. I saw this kids colouring book. I was acting all childish, so I asked Peiling - 
Me: Mummy, how come this girl never wear clothes?
Peiling: Because she feels very, urm, warm.
Me: Can I try?
Peiling: I don't mind. =D
Hahah. Peiling's answer damn epic. XD 
So we went on walking around, and we saw this! Saw I took out the banana, and say, Hey! Fake banana eh! Hahah. 
 And then I took out this, and ask Peiling "Mum, why is this banana so round?" All of us LOL straight away. Hahah. Yes, I know, that's a fake pear. -.-
And then I took this. XD I then asked Peiling and Aaron " Why is this so round? Why does it look so familiar?" Well, that time we were thinking in a wrong way, so me and Aaron end up saying it looked like something else. Heheh.
I know I'm full of nonsense. Hahah. Can't blame me kay. Influence. ;D

You were the one who hurt me. Why are you still so protective over me? 

This feeling, reminds me of you. But why you?   

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A month and a day. =D
Thursday, June 17, 2010 1:45 AM
I got fat arms and a big tummy. D: See, that's why I'm covering my stomach, but I failed to cover my arms. Sigh. Lols.
Went to library with Ridha just now and met up with Cherry and the rest for dinner. I know I have no life, meet someone just for dinner. What about you? No one to meet, jealous uhks? Kay, just joking. See, I'm bored to the extend of talking to my imaginary nemesis. Hahah. Well, my clean highcuts are now dirty because SOMEONE keep stepping on it. Purposely. Tskk. Nevermind. It doesn't matter. :D
So I spend my whole night looking for the song chords and lyrics for the old folk's home visit. I bet the class won't even appreciate my effort. -.- Who cares? You guys don't perform, what can I do? You think I want to sing old folk songs is it? Zzz. -.-
Oh well, I hope the class cooperates. :/


Hey hey, at first I thought I was crazy, making this kind of decision. I thought I will regret it, but I didn't. Hahah. I don't know whether you are over her yet, but whatever it is, I will be here. One month and a day~~~ :D 

I'm a bump you'll never get over.
Tuesday, June 15, 2010 10:56 PM
The girl beside me so pretty right? :D
I spent 1/4 of today on class meeting, 1/4 of it at YCB + YCI outing, 2/4 of it right now. :D
Class meeting = horrible. Total strength = like shit. -.- I was pissed when I see the number of people who bother to come.
YCB + YCI outing was kind of fun. Bowling was alittle sian. Went to the arcade after that and it was fun to the max! :D Took neoprints and played random stuff. Hahah. xD
I'm bored. :/ 

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Monday, June 14, 2010 10:14 PM
I feel so dumb. I was so happy just now. But the thought of it made me upset. Its so ridiculous. Why? Argh. I'm so sick of everything. God damn it. D:
I guess you really forget about it huh? ):

A bit too close.
Sunday, June 13, 2010 12:14 AM



Went shopping just now with Zihui, Sebas and Aaron~ Fun uhks. :D
Oh yeah, on the way home, I was talking to Sebas about super random stuff. Hahah. Suddenly talk about our past truth or dare experiences.And I asked him whether he prefer to get a peck from A or french kiss with B. He said he prefer the 1st option! Hahah! Great choice man! Both suck and you manage to chose one! LOL. xD


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Got to fix that calendar I have.
Friday, June 11, 2010 12:18 AM
This photo was taken about 3 months ago? Hahah. Okay. I admit I'm bored. Hmm. SANA course was great. Even though it was quite boring, it was fun. The sir (?) crack jokes which are like super funny? Hahah. I still remember, the new uniform group joke. The more wrong things you do, the higher your rank. LOL-ed at that. Role play was okay. I want to know that person's facebook. That person is freaking cute. :X But oh well, too bad. (:
Anyways, my contact lens tore just now and I went home wearing only the left side of the contact lens. I feel so cheated. )': Nah, just joking. Normal uhks. I'm just lucky it didn't cut my eye. Phew.  
Anyway, check this out. This guy is crazy! He blend a brand new nike air max! O: I mean, I like his other blendtec videos, but he blend a nike airmax? He even blended iPad and iPhone for goodness sake! But it's kind of interesting. :X

4 days. Even though it's a short period of time, I'm going to miss you badly. ): 

Bulletproof.
Wednesday, June 9, 2010 11:29 PM
I feel sick. Felt the same during training. Side effects. Sigh. :/ Training was kind of tiring. Stayed all the way until 6 after cd. Worth the wait uhks. ;D SANA course tomorrow! Heheh. 


I like you for who you are. Not anything else. Don't worry. I won't think much about that. I'm sure you will get over it. Well, even if you don't... Urm, it doesn't matter. (:

I'm just kind of disappointed. You don't remember anything. D: 

You are the only exception.
Tuesday, June 8, 2010 10:20 PM
Yesterday was fun! Had a great day with sushi and ramen. :D Window shopping, starbucks x2, spilled drinks x2 and Iman used her tapz card instead of ez link. LOL. If you're smart you will get what I mean. :D 
There's CD tomorrow. SANA course this thursday. Shopping this sat. Heheh. GSS! :D
Alright, let's make this post short and sweet. Bye~

Zzz. I miss you like crazy. :/

Sunday, June 6, 2010 10:58 PM
What the... 3 in less than 2 months? What's next? D: Fml.

Qual é o problema?
8:11 PM
Candy in a can. My current obsession. (I'm still obsess with nougats though.) :D 

I've been rotting at home the whole day. Parents went out and I've to stay at home. D: Just fried bread with cheese and now my kitchen is full of smoke. Nah, just joking. I've nothing better to do so I tried cooking all kinds of stuff.
I need to go shopping! Someone accompany me can? D:

Who are we are we are we?! :D
Saturday, June 5, 2010 3:33 PM

I'm back from 16th SLC! 16th SCL / YCB / Endeca rocks! :D

Day 1
Mass activities and orientation games was fun. Amazing race was, well, amazing. LOL. Well, other than the part where we only have 10 mins for lunch ( and found out we have another 20 mins -.- ) part and the dog and bone game. I was so tired that I dozed off in the bus ride there. But I became hyper after like, a few activities? Hahah. Bus ride back to Hwa Chong was awesome. I waved at like random people. 20 people wave back eh! :D Yay! Heheheh. 

Day 2 & 3
Full of paperwork and formal meetings. A lot of time and effort was needed to complete it. Nothing much happened.

Day 4
Minister of state came and had some kind of press conference kind of thing. Followed by prize presentation. Our group scored the highest for our action plan! :D The hard work really payed off. Plus, the best speaker came from my group! Grand finale was fun to the max! I thought YCB's peformance is going to screw up. But we did it! We didn't screw up or anything! 

I thought I will regret going for SLC. But I didn't. It was fun. (: Now, time for GSS and singapore art fest! :D

I don't want it to end.
Wednesday, June 2, 2010 10:46 PM
Will blog about SLC after the whole seminar ends. Meanwhile, try not to come to my blog until friday. Nah, I'm just joking. Heheh. I'm tired. Nights people. :D Nougat! (:

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