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Friday, September 24, 2010 6:09 PM
Hey, this post will contain a lot of childish crap from me. Don't read this if you hate me.
First of all, I broke down for the 8 time aready.
I wonder why I'm still thinking of you so much. Do you know that you're the first person who successfully make me cry when it comes to breaking up? Crying 8 times in a same day, for the same person.
I saw this coming yesterday, I told myself to be prepared. I told myself, no matter what. Smile. Keep your cool. Pretend you're okay even if you're not. NEVER cry in front of people.
I didn't. I read your letter and my heart sank. I knew I was gonna cry. I tried distracting myself. It didn't work. Broke down in the toilet. I felt horrible.
I was told that you cried. I have no idea why. People ask me what happened. My mind went blank and I end up breaking down again. I saw you. It made me felt worse.
Hahah. How childish can I get? I don't dare to face reality. I'm going to wait for you to change your relationship status on facebook. I don't have the heart to do it. I know I will end up crying.
Wait, what's the point? I'm already crying while typing this. But still.. I'll let you do it.
As far as I know, you're really awesome. You changed my mindset on lesbians. I use to hate them. Until a few months ago, I got really close to you. When we first get together, I told myself, no way, I will never fall for her. I'll just trying things out. So it will never happen. It did happen though. And I had a really awesome time when we were together. Thanks for the memories. I got to admit, I think my feelings for you won't fade away for quite some time.
Thanks for everything. I have fond memories of us. And I had a great experience. (:
I guess I'm going to concentrate on exams for now. I don't know whether I can concentrate on my studies.
Move on, Carissa, move on.